in 2013

Recently, my friends have been talking about how good if we can rewind the time by 5 years.

There are things we would like to fix. Sigh, 1990+ assholes going to replace the generation Y very very quickly. Ofcoz we know there is no way to look back, the only thing we can do now is look forward, so that the 5 years later me look back, there is no regret.

So in 2013, I would like to continue live healthier, exercise regularly, care about myself more. Pls don’t be lazy to move my lazy ass. Love all the internal organs and be appreciating of their hard work to keep myself functional, I guess it is never too late to start now.

To 5 years younger me, if you are living in some different dimension or something, pls don’t selfishly took youth for granted, you still have 5 years older, 10 years older, 15 years older, 20 years older you ahead and will be affected by every decision you’ve made.

Just one more year, the youngest ppl from 1980+ is going to step into wrong side of 25, while we are approaching 30 real soon, arhh.. So this is so depressing. T___T 

my sad life

Decided to dapau curry chu cheong fun from nearest stall, the boss kind enough gave me full pack of curry sauce and asked me whether enough or not.


I said enough and happily walked back to office. Happily and carefully pour the curry sauce into my Styrofoam plate, coz I was having the fear that I might accidentally spill the whole thing on my working table. Stopped when the sauce looks sufficient for my chu Cheong fun, throw the balance sauce into rubbish bin and start eating.

Halfway eating, all the sauce been suck dry by my chu Cheong fun, and the balance sauce is at rubbish bin. I was actually thinking should I pick up the sauce from rubbish bin.

Why is my life so sad

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Bought an expensive peach!! You have no idea how long I need to save just to buy the expensive peach because I am poor like that. Happily brought to office and eat during my precious lunch time!

Half way cutting the skin off, the whole fruit slip out from my hand and dropped right into rubbish bin.

For a second there, I almost convinced myself to ignore the fishbone and some other disgusting thing inside the dustbin, almost pick it up, almost wash it, and almost eat it.

That day, I have empty stomach.

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This is my story with the rubbish bin.

Sad life wtf

whining never dies

Someone asked me, after FIVE YEARS WORKING, you still not yet get used to how bitchy is working life meh? Everyday talk to you also can complain one. How come ah? Not tired meh?

My answer, tired your head, if I don’t complain, I will die of self-explosion!! And I am a girl, what do you expect, now sit back and let me finish my complain story.

Really, my complain is never ending, so I don’t know how ppl can stay cool in their job because they able to accept gracefully the bitchy side and even when they get a very biggggggg slap from the bitches! How can anyone let go dignity like that because of the peanut pay in the month end.. T_________________T

This is fucking sad la…

Eh… actually I did not complain in every job wat!!! There is two companies are out of my complain list!! The first one is, I am there to pass down my job scope to another person, and my daily job is read blogs, msn until the sunset wtf and gets paid. Hmmm… bestest job in the world.

The second one is, I have the BEST MD who remembers everyone’s name!!! It is freaking awesome to have a MD who can remember all 600++ employees name pls. BEST SYSTEM in the world, just pull out data from the canggih system, do your planning, issue your planning and EVERYONE will follow according to your plan, no argument, just like that.. At ANYTIME at all if I want to check the status, I just log into the system to check, just like thatttttt, very awesome right??? It is an employee oriented company, if customer request for ridiculous pull in, after check with production and confirm really cannot make it, and that’s it, the so call customer person, pls go fuck yourself, some more, we don’t really have a customer also, the so call pull in is to secure profit margin only, that is why really NO TROUBLE NO HASSLE, but too bad, another proves why good person won’t live long because the company bankrupt already wtf. T_T T_T T_T T_T #sadmaximum

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Stupid… now only feel like pee, I am lazy to go to pee because my legs are cramp, and I am too lazy to move la.. @$#P($&P#, shut up my bladder

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FINE… My bladder won…

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Where was I? ok.. my current company is totally opposite from my previous company, my God.

Every department job scope is totally conflict with each other, and everyone from each department is refraining from getting any bit info from each other if not it will become a crime to against some stupid policy. I swear, the management purposely makes it that way so that everyone in every department will fight with each other and management can squeeze everyone until the last juice from our brain and eat our brain like zombieeeeeeeee, after that turn the innocent sheep like us into brain-eating zombie in order to survive in this organization!!

Gah.. not to mention, a company full of small gas old people is super boringgggggggg… There was 1 case before, as the very low profile person, ofcoz all I did is stay away from the stupid drama. The story goes like this, a girl from sales department demanded store keeper from my department saying her stupid customer wants the item SUPER SUPER URGENT and she don’t care how busy the store keeper is, she wants the item to be invoiced and ship out asap! My comment on her expectation is she might as well get a Doraemon instead of yelling at my ppl, act all bitchy, bang here and there and shouted YOU BUSY IS YOUR BUSINESS, I WANT YOU TO DO MY ORDER NOW! You see, that is the problem, every fucking salesperson’s customer is urgent, we have only 1 store keeper. And you are saying hire more people?? Management said reach the head count already so hiring is not an option!

The cool store keeper did not give a fuck of her yelling just told her cool-ly, anything go talk to the boss. Zoom, the girl step into my office with her dinosaur foot step, bang the door when she came in and started her complains. Blabla, my boss called the storekeeper with loud speaker, WITH the girl together in the room, the innocent didn’t know and just “ranting” saying if she wasn’t a girl, he’d definitely slap her already.

Walao, the girl went berserk and starts screaming at the phone saying “I AM RIGHT HERE STANDING IN YOUR BOSS’ ROOM, PLS COME UP AND SLAP ME NOW IF YOU WISH TO”, then off with another dinosaur foot step and bang the innocent door again.

I was in the same room witnessed the drama and felt a bit funny of how a bitch acts like a victim in the show. A while later, the storekeeper gets warning letter wtf. #bitchwin.

Arhhhhhh.. I am very not balance, why must I serve all the stupid salesperson who acts like an asshole with respect??? Some more, I need to entertain every request from them politely… fuck professionalism, I’ve lost count of how many time I need to tahan my urge to ask them to fuck off. That’d be my greatest challenge every day.

To describe my job scope would be entertaining flies, each and every fly is dipped with shit, the amount of the flies is like when your accidentally hit a bee nest, and all the bee will start chasing you until you jump into the nearest pool and breath with straw, make sure the bees never find the straw or they will start attack your throat! What if If you don’t have a straw? Then good luck, you'd get drown so bees give up attacking you and go away.

to live up to expectation of others

Aisehman, the title alone is bombastic enough and definitely not something I’d write. But today is a special day!!!!!! Coz this will be my entry today. Lol lol…




I grew up as an ordinary kid, not particular cute, good in my result but not good enough to squeeze myself into the top 5, not particular good in anything at all, I was (and still am) the very very commoner among commoners. I was raised from typical Chinese family where my mom will tell me guide to do everything and not allowed me to do the don’ts that will bring the shame to the family, (I am not blaming) so whenever my mom said a NO (non-negotiable), it means no, can’t do and full stop. (ofcoz, I am not obedient enough to follow strictly every NO, but will do it secretly without alert anyone lol)



A very big part of my life, is constantly having rules, I will need the affirmation from peoples all of the time, because I can’t envision the consequence I’d need to face later, especially those that will create controversial in my social/work life. If I don’t, I know I will end up regretting max because I am not mentally strong enough to face all the critics and consequences alone. So being nice is my forever disguise in real life, but my true-self is never a “nice” one. #conflict Identity! Until maybe in this job, I will let my bitchy-self reveals and as expected I am just not thick-skinned enough, constantly will have this complicated feeling and can’t handle judges. I think this contributes a very big part to my anti-social personality as well, I am just too afraid to be myself, afraid of all the judges from peoples who don’t even know me.



I don’t even dare to say the FUCK word in real life (with close friends are excluded). I know right, screw me. I actually very adore those who dare to be themselves, dare to speak out how they feel, dare to fight for themselves, show the world their true-self, feel right to be themselves around people and do not give a shit of how others will think. I think la, I am actually those “daring” type as well. Most of the time, my guts are well hidden until something trigger (normally is anger wtf) it to be exposed! But as soon as my anger recedes, I will quickly retrieve back to my turtle shell and feeling regret for days. Yes, I know, double screw me.



I know we're supposed to live for ourselves; don't run away from things that makes you struggle, they will also make you grow, wahhh.. it’s easier to say than done! But, I think I am on my way and not coward as I used to be!! But must always remember the fine line between a “bitch” and “be yourself”, so I will never cross the line.



Whoaaaaaaa.. whoaaaa.. I feel so proud now for this post! Kthxbai.